Here's the thing, I know what triggers the old binging bell inside my head to go off and yet, I continue to sabotage myself. I am given "permission" to eat. I don't want permission nor did I ask for it but I'm drawn to my friend's and family's bad eating habits. For years, I was an out-of-control eater and social drinker with little or no respect for myself. I came to the conclusion that stress, boredom, and living without a plan are the last obstacles in my path. I have to live up to my moto: Focus and Play. I have to do better. I know I need help.